Forgiveness, Healing And Love, How I Couldn't Cry (Listen To Audio)

I've always wondered was I forgiving enough?Exactly What is forgiveness ? How do you apply it?

when someone hurts you deeply How do you forgive when the pain is so deep? How to be steadfast when you are consumed with the scars of betrayal; while overtaken by hatred for the individual ? How do you over come childhood affliction when your haunted by the painful memories of abuse all through your adulthood? God the pain is unbearable how do I forgive when the wounds of betrayal are so deep in my soul? God how do I endure such pain? I can't look at my enemies, I can't form the words "I forgive you when the pain aches so bad. " when someone has snatched my love one from me. How do I forgive lord? In the mist of my tribulations, I found myself pondering on these things. I found my thoughts and my spirit within me, struggling to deal with questions that I didn't have answers to. For that moment I needed words of encouragement to get me through the day. I wondered if anyone understood my pain, or even knew or cared what I was going through. For that moment i felt alone, not knowing where I stood with God. At my lowest moment I found myself crying out to God. Sometimes they were silent cries, sometimes  there were cries deep within my heart. Sometimes, they were painful cries or sometimes I was silent and portrayed a still numbness in my spirit. I couldn't cry, I couldn't do anything, but be still and ask why?

"Then I heard the Lord Say"

Remember that my words are truth, know that I am hear with you. Know that it is I that fight your battles. cast your cares upon me. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me. I am meek and lowly in heart . You shall find rest unto your souls.(Matthew 11:28-30)for it is in Me that you will find rest. Though Judas sat at the table with me, I allowed myself to be delivered up for your sins for the sins of the human race. Wipe the tears from your face, and shout victory  shall be mine, unto your enemies! I shall deliver those that persecute you, I shall fight your battles, for those that disregarded you. Rest in me, for I shall fight your battles! Move in the spirit of love, faith, and compassion. Know that i am with you. Know that i shall never leave you. Know that i shall never forsake you.